Friday, May 21, 2010

One thing

Not long ago several of us were talking about the "one thing" in life that is our dream, our goal, our priority. It's harder than you think to narrow it down to one thing. Two, three or ten things, yeah, no problem. But just one? I could be all spiritual and righteous sounding and say my one thing was to be closer to the Lord, or be His servant or do everything in His will and in a way that would be true - I do desire these things. Every day, though, I don't spend my time seeking these wonderful things and how we choose to spend (or not spend) our time is really where our heart lies. My mother-in-law often says "People can say what they want but what they choose to do really tells the story" and she's right. So honestly I can't say my one thing is any of the above, although I wish I could. And of course I could tell you my one thing was being a Godly, submissive, loving, wise wife but my husband could quickly unravel that myth. Since I spend lots and lots of time with my children you might think my one thing was being a great Mom. I do love my children and desire them to grow in the love and reverance of the Lord with a great deal of my heart but I am certainly not the Mom Timothy must have had. And although my desire is to see them walk with the Lord and use their lives fully for Him, I can only do my part as a parent in that and encourage them as they grow and make their own choices. So what is the "one thing" I dream about, spend my time on, desire? I have to say it is to try to learn in the many things how Christ must love us more than we can understand. In the tiny bluebirds learning to fly in the backyard, in the satisfaction of weeding a flower bed, in the joy of hearing my children talk about God's love, in the washing of dishes or any everyday tasks the one thing I desire is to see and understand Christ in all things. For only when I see HIM can I understand how badly I need Him, how far I am from who I think I am, how unbelievable His love is for me. To see Him in all things small and great, morning and night, day after day. That is my desire.